So just because this song was written 10 years before I was born, it doesn’t mean I still don’t know every word! Haha. This week was SUPER busy, and we finished the day with Holiday Karaoke with the patients from the psych units. It was so fun! At the end of the day, my co-workers Kim and Kirsten said they had a special song to sing for me, and I went ahead and joined in with them! Basically…they’re the best.
When I think back though to a year ago, if you had asked me what my reaction would have been to me getting divorced, I definitely would have said the “crumble and lay down and die” option. That’s definitely not how life has been for me though, and I’ve worked hard to be strong and stand up for myself during this process. It’s also really fun to think about having “all my life to live” and having “all my love to give.” Who knows what my future holds?! All I know is that I’m not that “chained up person” I was before, begging desperately to be loved. I’ve forgiven and I’ve focused my energy on making MYSELF a better person. I’m also proud to say that I’m finding joy again in my life…I have SURVIVED! I’m extremely blessed and looking so forward to spending these upcoming holidays with my family! Only one more week and I’ll be home! And although Christmas will be different this year, I have absolutely no doubt that I’ll survive it too. I’m ready for 2012 and the start of a brand new year!
I Will Survive – Gloria Gaynor
First I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong and I learned how to get along.
And so you’re back from outer space
I just walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second you’d be back to bother me.
Go on now go, walk out the door
Just turn around now, ’cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?
Oh no, not I, I will survive
Oh, as long as I know how to love, I know I’ll stay alive
I’ve got all my life to live, I’ve got all my love to give
And I’ll survive, I will survive, hey, hey.
It took all the strength I had not to fall apart
Kept trying hard to mend the pieces of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry, but now I hold my head up high
And you see me, somebody new
I’m not that chained up little person still in love with you
And so you felt like dropping in and just expect me to be free
But now I’m saving all my loving for someone who’s loving me. Chorus