For Christmas this year, I gave my mom my favorite gift I’ve ever given anyone. I spent months recording a CD of me playing the piano and singing several of her all-time favorite songs…she loved it. One of the songs included on the CD was “Angel By Your Side” by Francesca Battistelli. I absolutely LOVE these lyrics, but I especially love the message that these lyrics send. This song is all about someone in your life who supports you during really difficult times. That person, for me, has definitely been my mom. I couldn’t have asked for better support throughout my entire life. Especially through these last several months, she has comforted me, cried with me, and listened to me during times when I just needed someone to hear what I had to say. She’s also been a HUGE dose of reality for me though. In a very loving, nurturing way, she looked me in the eyes one day back in August and said: “Mer, you’re going to get a job. You’re going to move on. You need to pick up the pieces of your life and start over. This does not and will not define you. You’re beautiful and will be able to move on and have a beautiful life…” Of course, I was absolutely welcome to stay with my parents until I had a job arranged, but once I had moved to Iowa, it was expected that I would find work and be able to financially support myself. My mom’s definitely been an angel though, who has walked by my side through this entire process. I’ve felt rejected and alone so many times, but in some ways, she knew exactly how I felt. My family was rejected and lied to in many of the same ways I was. I always appreciated that I didn’t have to try to explain myself to my mom. Whether I was upset, or even really frustrated, she acknowledged those feelings and didn’t try to stop me from having them. (Although she never admitted it…I think she was probably feeling those same feelings too!) I know though, that as a mother, she would have traded ANYTHING to be able to take the pain away from me and make this process easier. I’m just so grateful for her and can’t imagine my life without her. My mom is also really funny, and she makes me laugh each and every day. She really is the best.
Last weekend, my mom and youngest sister (since she’s 6-foot tall and no longer the smallest) traveled up to Iowa to spend the weekend with me. We had an AMAZING time. We went shopping and bought new clothes, new shoes, more new furniture for my house and of course ate plenty of great food. 🙂 I consider it a huge blessing in my life that I have such an amazing mom. She’s even got a weekend planned to come up to Iowa and stay with me after my surgery in February. I could go on and on, talking about how great she is, but I’ll let the words of this song and pictures of my amazing family explain the rest.
Basically…thanks Mom. I love you.
Angel By Your Side – Meredith Elise
I can’t say that everything’s okay
‘Cause I can see the tears you’re crying
And I can’t promise to take the pain away
But you can know I won’t stop trying.
I’ll be the angel by your side
I will get you through the night
I’ll be the strength you can’t provide on your own
‘Cause when you’re down and out of time
And you think you’ve lost the fight
Let me be the angel
The angel by your side.
I know it feels like you’re running out of faith
‘Cause it’s so hard to keep believing
But if I can bring a smile back to your face
If for a moment, you’ll forget all about it. Chorus
‘Cause this won’t be the last time
You’ll need a little hope
But I want to be the first to let you know. Chorus