Worn – Tenth Avenue North

I’m tired. I’m worn. My heart is heavy. Life doesn’t always go the way I think it should.

My prayer to God tonight is this: “Let me know the struggle ends. That You can mend a heart that’s frail and torn. I wanna know a song can rise from the ashes of a broken life.

I know that You can give me rest, so I cry out with all that I have left.”

Worn – Tenth Avenue North
I’m tired, I’m worn
My heart is heavy
From the work it takes
To keep on breathing
I’ve made mistakes
I’ve let my hope fail
My soul feels crushed
By the weight of this world.

And I know that You can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left.

Chorus:
Let me see redemption win
Let me know the struggle ends
That You can mend a heart
That’s frail and torn
I wanna know a song can rise
From the ashes of a broken life
And all that’s dead inside can be reborn
‘Cause I’m worn.

I know I need to lift my eyes up
But I’m too weak
Life just won’t let up
And I know that You can give me rest
So I cry out with all that I have left. Chorus

My prayers are wearing thin
Yeah, I’m worn
Even before the day begins
Yeah, I’m worn
I’ve lost my will to fight
I’m worn
So, heaven come and flood my eyes. Chorus

Though I’m worn
Yeah, I’m worn.

How You Live – Point of Grace

Most weeks, there is a song that seems to match exactly how I’m feeling and describes my life even more perfectly than I could even attempt in words.  Last week though, it was Thursday before I realized what that song was, and I had been discouraged that it was taking so long to find a song I could identify with.  On this particular day though at work, I got a call from a patient’s family who I had gotten really close to in my work with at the hospital, and they told me that the patient had passed away.  During the call, the family also asked if I would be available and willing to play music for the service.  Within moments, I remembered singing this song with that patient and knew it was the one I was to sing for the funeral that weekend.

As I performed this song, I couldn’t help but be moved by the lyrics and think about the wonderful job I have as a music therapist.  I especially love the chorus:  “Turn up the music, turn it up loud. Take a few chances, let it all out. ‘Cause you won’t regret it, looking back from where you have been. ‘Cause it’s not who you knew, and it’s not what you did, it’s how you live.”  What an incredible thought – to live your life with no regrets.  To not spend your life looking back, wishing you would have made different choices, or lived life differently.  NOW is the time to begin.

I can’t help but just be grateful – I’m so blessed to be where I am, doing what I’m doing, surrounded by the people who love me the most.

How You Live – Point of Grace
Wake up to the sunlight with your windows open
Don’t hold in your anger or leave things unspoken
Wear your red dress, use your good dishes
Make a big mess and make lots of wishes
And have what you want
But want what you have
And don’t spend your life looking back.

Chorus:
Turn up the music, turn it up loud
Take a few chances, let it all out
‘Cause you won’t regret it
Looking back from where you have been
‘Cause it’s not who you knew
And it’s not what you did, it’s how you live.

So, go to the ballgames and go to the ballet
And go see your folks more than just on the holidays
Kiss all your children, dance with your wife
Tell your husband you love him every night
Don’t run from the truth
‘Cause you can’t get away, oh no
Just face it and you’ll be okay.  Chorus

Oh, wherever you are and wherever you’ve been
Now is the time to begin.
So give to the needy and pray for the grieving
Even when you don’t think that you can
‘Cause all that you do is bound to come back to you
So, think of your fellow man
And make peace with God
And make peace with yourself, oh yeah
‘Cause in the end there’s nobody else. Chorus

‘Cause it’s not who you knew
And it’s not what you did, it’s how you live.