Echo – Jason Walker

This song is actually one that one of my adolescents chose Friday during a “Song Choice” session I led with them.  After the session, I was surprised at how the lyrics of the song kept me thinking about the patients I work with.  Although I absolutely love my job and wouldn’t trade it for the world, there are days when it is emotional for me.  Watching an adolescent struggling with depression and feeling desperately alone is heartbreaking.  Watching one of my adult patients die alone with no family in the room is also heartbreaking for me.  It’s those patients that I want to sit with, hold their hand, and just tell them that they’re not alone.  The lyrics of this song talk about feeling broken, which for most people is something we have all identified with at some point in our lives.  Sometimes it’s just hard to see people though in the place where I once was, with no ability at this point to tell them that it really does get better.  All I can do is just listen and support them in the place they are at right now.  Sometimes too, I have to go home and cry for my patients.  Lots of people say “I don’t know how you are music therapist and do what you do.”  Well, the truth is – it’s not always easy.  As much as I try to leave my work as I walk out the hospital door, sometimes my patients stay with me in the evenings, as I pray and think about them and their families.  Tonight, just thinking about one particular 15yo adolescent boy who chose this song in group last week, and who will definitely stay with me for while…

Echo – Jason Walker
Hello, hello
Anybody out there?  Cause I don’t hear a sound
Alone, alone
I don’t really know where the world is but I miss it now.

Chorus:
I’m out on the edge and I’m screaming my name
Like a fool at the top of my lungs
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I’m alright
But it’s never enough
Cause my echo, echo
Is the only voice coming back
Shadow, shadow
Is the only friend that I have.

Listen, listen
I would take a whisper if that’s all you had to give
But it isn’t, is it?
You could come and save me and try to chase the crazy right out of my head.  Chorus

I don’t wanna be an island
I just wanna feel alive and
Get to see your face again
I don’t wanna be an island
I just wanna feel alive and
Get to see your face again.

But ’til then
Just my echo, my shadow
You’re my only friend.

I’m out on the edge and I’m screaming my name
Like a fool at the top of my lungs
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I’m alright
But it’s never enough
Cause my echo, echo
Oh my shadow, shadow.

Hello, hello
Anybody out there?

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